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Friday, October 24, 2003 i was so close. i parked my car at 7:59. my class started at 8:00. the instructor locks the door at 8:00. so close! it's all good. i just need some coffee. i hope eleana does okay today. i was going to call her this morning to make sure she was up, but i just wasn't thinking straight this morning and didn't remember till now. is it weird that the sun was orange this morning at 7? while driving to school, an orange shadow came across my car. what the heck? it was the sun. shouldn't the sun be orange right before sunset?i will continue blogging about what went down yesterday later. well, i guess all you need to know is that they girls went down yesterday. on the dance floor and falling off the bar. ouch! hope vanessa is a-okay. gosh, i am surely chipper this morning. ?? crazy. Wednesday, October 22, 2003 to compensate for not being able to go see addison last night in costa mesa (josh had called to inform me) for numberous reasons, (not 21, had school, tired, lack of sleep, lack of food, lack of money) i listened to them on the ride home and i realized just how great these guys sound. maybe i'm biased or i just think they are great. such sweet boys.my mind continued to drift and i found myself thinking about my cousins. i started to think about how they must be feeling and i started imagining myself if i had lost my mom or dad and woah, mood swing from happy/chipper to... not so happy/chipper. i shook my head back and forth as if my mind and brain was an etch a sketch and erased all terrible thoughts from my mind. let's not think about that stuff again. my test yesterday went well. well i hope so. i better do well! shoot. Tuesday, October 21, 2003 i hit the gym today. the last time i went was maybe a week before vanessa's sister's wedding. that was a while ago. i've been eating more lately. which is good? i guess thanks to peter. ever since i met him. that boy eats all the time. which reminds me. i was talking to eleana the other night. when we were outside the sketch rv party. i told her how glad i was that vanessa has her to hang out with and i said i was happy that vanessa has someone to feed her. (not literally) i was just saying how nice it is that they have each other. (i wish i had an eleana and a vanessa with me at school sometimes) then eleana said that she was glad that she had my consent. i was kind of taken back by that. my consent? wow. hmmm. anyways, we had a bonding moment there.i talked to nancy earlier tonight and she reminded me about the self defense class. she was telling me how they show this video to show how women can be attacked. a man was dressed up in this white padded costume and he looked like a big marshmellow. in the video, the guy was telling the women to get down on her knees...and give him head. WH-AT?!? what kind of video is this? don't these types of videos usually have the attacker grab the woman and tell them to hand over their purses or get in a car or something? it was just kind of funny... but not so funny b/c this actually happens in reality. okay, nevermind. excuse my nonsense. it's a sign that i should get back to studying. Monday, October 20, 2003 hello hello. i am just gonna ramble on for a little bit before i hit the books. i had a dream last night...i think...i can't really tell if it was real or just a dream. Nothing creepy or nightmarish about it. Just that i was eating somewhere with a bunch of people and then i asked vanessa if she was planning on going to see phantom planet. and then cut to peter mumbling something like he always does and me just going WH-AT! weird random stuff. but did that really happen? we were eating last night with a bunch of people. hmmm. anyways, i am just bored b/c i don't really feel like studying. and i just realized that i am not at all prepared for my bio test tomorrow. which is another reason why i should be getting back to my studies. i studied all day yesterday, but i guess not enough? it totally killed my brain cells by the end of the night. ok bye bye. |
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