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Friday, July 05, 2002 Blackbird singing in the dead of nightTake these broken wings and learn to fly All your life, you've been waiting for this moment to arrive Yes i realize i'm putting this lyric up again, but it's stuck in my head again. yesterday was fun. we didn't go to the park, but we went over to my aunts. and my cousin monic and i and my sister took the little kiddies (we like to call the young ones kiddies, or kids, but they are growing up so fast! *tear) we took them out to the park and we played baseball and then tennis and we rollerbladed around the empty tennis courts. we had fun. then we ran to the store to get drinks and then we decided we'd try to buy some fireworks for the kiddies. we brought it home and it turned out monic and i had the most fun lighting the fireworks. the kids were just sitting there, but they got excited when it was lit. they just didn't want to wait while we fumbled around lining up the fireworks in a 'creative' fashion. hahah, monic and i were trying to do a domino effect where you light one and that one will light up another and then so forth. i think we had the most fun. hahaha. i'm not sure what we're gonna do today with the kids. more tennis, or bowling or ice skating or movies. i don't know. on another matter that's been going on, i hope it turns out well. i don't want to do anything to screw it up again. Thursday, July 04, 2002 So happy together...it's 4 in the morning right now. it's the middle of the night, but technically it's the 4th of july now so.... HAPPY 4th of JULY ! ! ! i'm like rick melee...i'm so excited about tomorrow i can't sleep. i'm going to be spending the day, possibly the weekend with my family....and you shuold too! if you're not, you're more than welcomed to come hang out with my family! anyways, usually july 4th is a big thing around my house. my family from up north comes down and we have a big weekend just going to the beach and spending time together. this year, some of my family can't come down. we're going to be going to milesquare park and just hang out there. there are no further plans, but it sounds like fun just spending time with my cousins, especially my little cousins who i haven't seen in a while. newport dunes aren't having their annual fireworks display this year. oh no! what am i going to do? i might not get to see the fireworks tomorrow! fireworks are the best. i'm always somehow so captivated by them. yes it's 4 in the morning, but i haven't been up this whole time. i've already slept! 5 hours is good enough...hahah, just kidding. i fell asleep kind of early because i was waiting for my mom to finish playing 'spider solitaire' on my comp. she started at 10 and didn't finish till 1:30!!! can you believe that? i woke up just as she was getting ready for bed and looked at the clock and it was 1:30. wow, my mom is hooked on that game. so i fell asleep early and was awoken by something at around 3:30 and i couldn't fall back to sleep. so i've just been laying in bed thinking... about...well...just stuff, and getting excited about tomorrow because i'll get to run around and play in the park! hehehee, hey, i'm still a kid at heart! everyone, have a happy and safe 4th of july!!! Wednesday, July 03, 2002 what's this all about? audiogalaxy being shut down? what the heck?!? how can this be? audiogalaxy was the best. sorry i'm freaking out. i was just saying to my cousin how if you had a cd burner, you'd understand how this can turn your world upside down. downloading music becomes your LIFE!anyways, i forgot to mention! on sunday i put in a doorbell system for my house. we've gone so many years without one, we weren't too sure if we even needed one now, but oh well, just in case. i'm so proud of myself. i set it up all by myself. i had to drill a hole through the outside of the house to inside the garage and i had to do a little bit of wiring. wow, mission accomplished! it works! oh you know what's scary? my sister's friend, sarah, the kind of annoying one, she and her sister came to pick us up last friday for bowling. anyways, she jumped/monkeed over our gate! woah. there was only one other person who has ever done that! now do you see why i installed a doorbell? hmm...maybe next time i should install a security system. i got to use my sister's new jacuzzi bathtub. oh it was nice. wow. it was so nice to just lay there and relax and kind of think about things. there were bubbles going and it was nice. Gotta get you into my life... Tuesday, July 02, 2002 i'm going to go play my guitar now. that always clears my mind. i wish i could play my piano, but it's so dusty. i had been going to uci to use their pianos, but i just don't feel like going to uci today. better yet i'm going to go clean my piano right now. i was just checking my email and i noticed a reply email from my dad from probably a few weeks ago. he wrote: "I depress at work, I do not feel doing anything. Thanks for wishing me having a good day. I will come home for lunch. " ahh, i don't know what to do now. i'm sad that my dad's sad. ack.Monday, July 01, 2002 TIPS FOR LIFE <---i saw this in someone's aim profile1. Give people more than they expect, and do so cheerfully. 2. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you'd like. 3. Don't say, "I love you," unless you really mean it. 4. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 5. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 6. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely. 7. In disagreements, fight fair. No name calling. 8. Don't judge people by their relatives. 9. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 10. Call your mom. 11. Say, "Bless you," when you hear someone sneeze. 12. Don't let a little squabble damage a good friendship. 13. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immedieate steps to correct it. 14. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. 15. Marry someone you love to talk to. As you get older, good conversation will be one of the principal elements of an enduring relationship. 16. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer. 17. Read more books, and watch less TV. 18. In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation. Don't bring up the past. 19. Never interrupt when you are being flattered. 20. Mind your own business. 21. Trust in God, but lock your car. 22. Hug your friends and family. My own tips for life: 23. Appreciate everyone and everything in your life. You never know what will happen tomorrow. 24. Listen to your parents. 25. Don't drink and drive i forgot! my car is soooo spankin' clean!! it's so cool. inside and out. well almost entirely clean inside, i still need to vacuum. yesterday i met up with cliff and marie and we took our cars to the car wash place where you put in coins and run around your car like a maniac trying to get every spot of your car clean before the timer goes off. if you saw my car, you'd say it was really dirty too. it was the dirtiest it has ever been. i got to use my new 'california blade.' it's this blade that wipes the water off your car. cliff had one and it worked soo well i had to get one too. then we went back to cliff's house. he has the armoral wipe stuff to clean the interior of your car. now my windows are sparkling clean and my dashboard shiny and glossy as every. it looks nice! i love it when my car is clean, it's so pirdy! ok, so within a week, it'll be dirty again, but for the time being, i'm enjoying the clean look. Lucy in the sky with diamonds.... i just went to deal with my dog who was scratching on the door. she almost bit my hand off. let's see, what did i do today. i went to work early this morning. then went to pick up my sister from summer school, then i went straight to class. then i came home and ate and then i fell asleep for half an hour? or an hour? but my nap seemed so long. i was totally knocked out. i'm listening to the clash right now. i was also listening to the aquabats in my car. my car is probably the only place i get the chance to listen to music becuase i spend so much time in my car. my friend ernie says i am pretty oblivious when it comes to knowing if a guy is interested or not. eh, i don't know. yeh, i guess.i don't really care. i was just kind of thinking how one time, i went on a date with a guy and didn't know it was a date...actually, i'm still not even sure if it was a date or not. hahah, yeh. i was just thinking about that. it's funny. tomorrow i need to go pick up my pictures and do errands for my mom at costco and go buy some shoes for work. i know there was somehting else i had to do...i forgot wow, how am still so protective over some people who i don't know anymore, or who are no longer in my life? i guess once you're important to me, you'll always be important. Sunday, June 30, 2002 Wednesday morning at five o'clock as the day beginsSilently closing her bedroom door, Leaving the note that she hoped would say more She goes downstairs to the kitchen, clutching her handkerchief, Quietly turning the back door key, stepping outside she is free She (we gave her most of our lives), is leaving (sacrificed most of our lives) Home (we gave her everything money could buy), She's leaving home after living alone for so many years (bye bye) Father snores as his wife gets into her dressing gown Picks up the letter that's lying there, Standing alone at the top of the stairs She breaks down and cries to her husband daddy our baby's gone Why would she treat us so thoughtlessly, How could she do this to me? She (We never thought of ourselves), Is leaving (never a thought for ourselves), home (we struggled hard all our lives to get by) She's leaving home after living alone for so many years (bye, bye) Friday morning at nine o'clock she is far away Waiting to keep the appointment she made, Meeting a man from the motor trade She (what did we do that was wrong), Is having (we didn't know it was wrong), fun (fun is the one thing that money can't buy) Something inside that was always denied for so many years (bye, bye), She's leaving home (bye ,bye) awesome beatles song oh i just wanted to quickly add how i was thinking about my dad. i noticed before how when he's stressed, angry or tired or something is bothering him, his forehead would wrinkle up. but it went away. these days, it seems as if the sparkle in his eyes have been replaced with wrinkles on his face. jeez, well noticing that made me notice again how alike i am with my dad. i'm not quite sure if it's suppose to be a good thing, because well, it just isn't. anyways, i was driving today, so many things on my mind, and i realized how my forehead was wrinkling up. i didn't relize till i looked in the rear view mirror. interesting. yes ok that's it for now i ran around all day doing errands. well actually i spent the morning cleaning up my room and then i took my sister to go recycle all our cans and bottles. we got $11.38. not bad, eh? i then went on some errands, one of these errands was going to fry's to check out the phones. yeah, we only have 1 phone right now, and it's not cordless, and we dont' have an answering machine anymore. so i went to fry's and now we have 3 phones, but nowhere to put them. they'll probably all end up in my room since everyone is down there. yes that was my day. i came home then a few hours later ventured over to dana point to my friend's friend's house. they were gonna have a bonfire, but instead we had a 'rich people's campout' in his backyard where he had a jaccuzi. his house is soo nice. it's a 1950's house, so everything is antique. i heard the new reel big fish cd today. very cool band. i liked them. we also listened to suburban legend's new cd...or ep....i wasn't sure. i like them. i have some of their songs on my comp...i think...i haven't been on my computer for a while. everyone was talking about them and they told me about them playing 55 days at downtown disney. wow, that is a long time. this one girl at the party...she says she's good friends with the band. anyways, i'm really tired now so i'm gonna go to bed. night! |
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