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Friday, July 26, 2002 last night i couldn't sleep again. wait, no last night i slept well, but the night before i couldn't sleep, so i was up and online and cleaning up my room and stuff. my mom wakes up and says "why are you always up in the middle of the night. are you taking drugs or something??" i was like woah, no i'm not taking drugs! i just have sleeping problems. i don't know why. and it's not like things are bothering me right now. i guess it's just a bad habit that has formed. beats me. or like my mom likes to say, "beat me."so i haven't had time to practice the piano anymore so i'm gonna go do that now. i don't know why i had to write that...just thinking to myself i guess. dude, paying for classes nearly killed me. i had to run around yesterday and transfer and deposit money into my bank account. fun stuff. i checked my balance this morning and i had $1029.38. classes will cost me $1029.50. eek! i had to get 10 bucks from my dad and i ran over to the bank this morning to deposit it. whew! so as of right now. i have maybe 7 dollars in my wallet and less than 10 dollars in the bank. oh but i just got my paycheck from disney. that will help. so this situation with money lately. um...my dad's been out of work for 2 weeks now. another week before he can come back. so basically he didn't have money to pay for my school. it's a long story about what my dad is going through at work. it's not really like we don't have money, it's just that we can't get to it right now or that other things have to be paid.so i'm paying as much as i can for my school. when my parents need cash, i'm the one who takes it out of my bank account. no wonder! i've been trying to figure out why i have so little money in my bank account. oh and the times when i go to costco to buy stuff for my mom, yeh mymoney paying for food for a family of 4. doesn't make sense. but hey i want to help out. but it's so sad that i don't have any money left. i was trying to save up. it's so weird. i usually have money to spend freely and now i'm all freaking out because i will probably have to learn how to find food to eat at home instead of going out and getting food. i wish our kitchen was done. then i'd learn how to cook and cook myself good food to eat instead of eating cereal or salad or microwavable food. Tuesday, July 23, 2002 damn i'm in a really bad mood right now. i've been snapping at my whole family since i got home just a while ago. i guess i'm just really tired. i was driving home from work and i could tell i was starting to get tense and moody. so i didn't really want to go straight home. i went to starbucks and was thinking of going to the beach and just chilling becuase i didn't want to be angry at home. but i was tired and sleepy so i went straight home. and look what happened. i've been snapping at everyone. everything has been getting on my nerves. nothing in particular happened, just my sister and her annoying friend. i'm going to go to sleep now before i say or do anything else that i might regret.Monday, July 22, 2002 oh i just remembered and just wanted to add becasue it was funny. i was up late one night and i turned on the tv. well there was a commercial for those cds of various artists...called now?1,2,3,4...etc. well you know the ones that they have and they are up to like 8 or 9 now? well something corporate is on the most recent one. and phantom planet too! i could've sworn i saw it! you have to believe me! it was weird. hey the hub in fullerton is cool. i had been there during the day and thought it was cool. but i like it a lot more at night. it's kind of like gypsy den, except bands actually play there and there's an arcade in the back....the only bad thing is it's kind of far away. so yesterday was yet another fun day.work today was interesting. tiring, but to thiink i didn't even do much today. um...i began the day as BOH...that's back of house ya'll. anyways, i actually liked the costume. it was all white...chef's white. but noooo, i had to go and say that i didn't mind interacting with the guests and kids and all. so they're going to put me in front...and now i have to wear a really "atttractive" baby blue costume. ewww. i changed shifts so i'm working tomorrow at 1600-2200 (4-10) instead of friday. yeah! i have friday night free! wooohoo. i want to go thrift store shopping again...who knows what you'll find. i love my lacoste jacket. although i did pay 30 bucks for it. but hey, it's lacoste! and it's a nice jacket. it keeps me warm and fits well. um...i'm just thinking of random things to write about right now....um....i have a lot of candy in my car.....i probably won't eat them all and i should've given them to vanessa. i have random spots on my arm that are a bit bruised....from john (vanessa's friend)...dummmb! get well soon was all right yesterday. i like their old songs. they played "i promise"...good song. the band after was called lindley?....i heard them on go loco a while ago. i was like "hey! this song sounds familiar." ok, i'm bored but sleepy so i think i will go to bed early. melee didn't play yesterday, we thought they did, so we were sad. shoot, i was going to call jennifer during their set so she could hear a song of theirs....they weren't there, therefore i didn't call....hope she understands. i didn't forget though! um...what else, what else. nothing else i guess. ok good night ya'll |
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